Nitram (2021)

Caleb Landry Jones: Nitram

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• [Spoilers] 

  Nitram : Why didn't you cry?

  Mum : What?

  Nitram : When the police found him, you didn't cry. How come?

  Mum : Just because I don't cry doesn't mean I'm not hurting.

  Mum : What about you. Why didn't you cry?

  Mum : Do you even miss him?

  Nitram : No.

  Mum : He really loved you.

  Nitram : Not enough to stick around, though.

  Mum : Yeah, he was so unwell.

  Nitram : So?

  Nitram : Everyone else feels shitty all the time, walks around feeling fucking sad. Why couldn't he?

  Mum : I don't know

  Nitram : If anyone should have walked into that dam, it was me. I'm the one no-one listens to. I'm the retard.

  Mum : Oh, don't say that.

  Nitram : You and dad would always argue about it, wouldn't you?

  Mum : No, we didn't.

  Nitram : Slow means the same thing, mum. You're not different than all them kids who call me Nitram at school.

  Mum : Well... that's not true. I'm your mother.

  Nitram : No.

  Mum : Yes, I gave birth to you.

  Nitram : Sometimes I watch myself. But I don't know who- who it is that I'm looking at. Like... I can't get to him. If I could- I could just change him so that he was like everyone else, but I don't know how. So instead, I'm- I'm here. Stuck here... like this. Eating this shit. Talking to you all because I'm not a coward like him.

  Mum : I really- I don't- understand what you're... talking about.

  Nitram : It doesn't matter, mum. Neither do I.