Sarah Drew is looking back at how she felt leaving Grey’s Anatomy after starring on the show for nine seasons.

The actress, who played Dr. April Kepner, was let go from the ABC medical drama after season 14 in 2018, alongside Jessica Capshaw, who played Dr. Arizona Robbins. However, shortly after her exit, Grey’s Anatomy‘s shortform series B-Team — which Drew directed — scored an Emmy nomination.

“We were unceremoniously let go in a way that felt mean and unjust, and, because of that, the outpouring of love was so enormous it was like you were sitting there watching people [eulogize you],” Drew said on a recent episode of the Call It What It Is podcast, co-hosted by Capshaw and Camilla Luddington.

In a previous interview with Vulture, she likened her experience celebrating the Emmy nom after exiting the show to “attending [my] own funeral.” And while her “confidence had gotten a bit shaken in the wake of being let go,...